Sunday, April 6, 2014

running with a smile


As I rolled out of bed this morning I felt very grateful for the life I lead. I met up with a bunch of my runner girl's today as we participated in the Hot Chocolate 15k in Philly. It was a beautiful day with sun, very mild winds and a beautiful course.
About five miles in I the sun was shining on my face and I had this sudden overwhelming sense of my sister's, Jess and Shana, running on both sides of me. All I could do was smile. It's so surreal to think fifteen years ago today that everything that our four families knew was shaken and turned upside down in a matter of moments. Fifteen years just seems so long ago. I can't say that my heart is healed, because I can't. But I can confidently say that I believe that I have made the conscious choice to live in a manner that has made the girls proud and allows their memories to be carried on.

Every once in awhile the thought of what Shana would think of where we are all at today. I'm a wife with two teenagers, drug counselor and resident of Medford Lakes with forty stamps on my passport. I think all of the PGM family members have stepped forward doing what we can to make our girl's proud. I think they would agree. So as I rest my legs in my back yard after my 9.3 mile trek I am thankful for today, the beautiful memories I hold in my heart and the realization that each day is a gift. 

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